Had a very relaxing weekend in the country. Did tons of shopping and spent most of the time in the hot tub. Also came away with a bit of clarification on the whole "dating as a drug" thing. If you've been reading this blog, you may have noticed I go on "dates" in all forms- alot. I'm a bit burnt out. What caused the burn out? Short story would be me meeting recruiter guy last night and then doing the walk of shame. I wouldn't say I'm done, I just need a break. Need to hold onto my center (thinking about that being my next tattoo, location: forehead). I dont want to date just to date. I really want to be excited about the person and I think that just takes time.
On a brighter note, I contacted my ex today. Asked if he'd like to get dinner this week to catch up. A olive branch, if you will. I think I'm ready to start our friendship. I'm done with the tears and I know there will always be a bit of sadness in my heart for us but I feel I'm ready for the next step, the friendship us. I'm not totally sure about me seeing him again, but I'll never know until I try.
Bonus- soapbox IM with blogger boy:
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me: I think thats were u built strength, the idea of, 'hey, I'm single and I can do anything I want, I'm not tied to a single person". u and I have been with the same person for almost 5 + years and we need to look at that now
Blogger Boy: yes!, it's great, it sucks but it's great!
me: just making positive choices in our lives. but thats the thing. it doesn't suck, that was part of our life that was beautiful and full. now we are on to the next chapter and we decide how it looks, how it feels. its kinda empowering when u stop to think about it
and scary as shit
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I just hope i can follow my own advise when its 2am on a Saturday night at the eagle :)
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