We tied!

Last nights kickball game was awesome. We were down by two and then pulled a head in the 5th inning. Sadly the other team took a legal albeit "immoral" bunt kick and tied it up in the end. But what a game, I feel we all got better at catching and working together as a team. And compared to last weeks loss of 27 -1 , we did pretty damn good! My hip is pretty f*cked up from football during the afternoon and kickball at night, maybe its karma?

I have dinner with my ex tonight. I'm interested in hearing how his life is going. I'm still kinda holding my breath, wondering if its to soon, but we will see. We are meeting at Maryann's for some very strong cheap margaritas. Lord knows I'll need a few!

The Gay Version

My friend Clare forwarded me an email about a men's room mural with women's reaction to what they see at the urinal. I knew it was only a matter of time until the gay version came out. Last night at Barrage while I was getting drinks with Corey, I stumbled upon the gay one (my camera phone kinda sucks but u get the idea).

The Process, part III

Had a very relaxing weekend in the country. Did tons of shopping and spent most of the time in the hot tub. Also came away with a bit of clarification on the whole "dating as a drug" thing. If you've been reading this blog, you may have noticed I go on "dates" in all forms- alot. I'm a bit burnt out. What caused the burn out? Short story would be me meeting recruiter guy last night and then doing the walk of shame. I wouldn't say I'm done, I just need a break. Need to hold onto my center (thinking about that being my next tattoo, location: forehead). I dont want to date just to date. I really want to be excited about the person and I think that just takes time.

On a brighter note, I contacted my ex today. Asked if he'd like to get dinner this week to catch up. A olive branch, if you will. I think I'm ready to start our friendship. I'm done with the tears and I know there will always be a bit of sadness in my heart for us but I feel I'm ready for the next step, the friendship us. I'm not totally sure about me seeing him again, but I'll never know until I try.

Bonus- soapbox IM with blogger boy:
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me: I think thats were u built strength, the idea of, 'hey, I'm single and I can do anything I want, I'm not tied to a single person". u and I have been with the same person for almost 5 + years and we need to look at that now

Blogger Boy: yes!, it's great, it sucks but it's great!

me: just making positive choices in our lives. but thats the thing. it doesn't suck, that was part of our life that was beautiful and full. now we are on to the next chapter and we decide how it looks, how it feels. its kinda empowering when u stop to think about it
and scary as shit
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I just hope i can follow my own advise when its 2am on a Saturday night at the eagle :)

Have a great 4th!

I'm off to Hartford, CT for some major R&R with my friend Phil. Think pool, hot tub, ATVs and beaver tails!!! Happy 4th!

pre-pride craziness

drinking and a camera

Kelly Clarkson-Behind These Hazel Eyes

I'm feeling a little emotional today. gee, wonder why?

Pride: Highlights and Lowlights

High-

• the subway ride with my roomie, Craig, Hung, Michael & Tyler (movie coming soon)
• pizza at 1am
• wall*E with blogger boy, and really wanting to hold his hand during the movie. Gross, I know
  
• freezing cold rain and white shorts with no underwear, happy pride!
• playing volley with Hung down 5th ave
• bumping the ball with parade watchers
• seeing blogger boy in his speedo
• The mega hot guys at the dance
• seeing Jennifer Hudson perform at the Pier Dance
• watching the fire works with my temp bf, Corey- just hold me!
• watching Corey make out with some guy from Turkey
• monday at 7am
• Popeye's Chicken

Low-

• paying $10 for a spinach wrap and bottle water. $10?
• getting lost in the rain on my way to the pier dance
• fighting my way through the crowds at the pier dance
• spending the last hour at dance with this guys from Vancouver, only to find out he has a bf
• ditching Corey to spend $15 on a cab ride to blogger boy's place, only to leave 30 mins later and not get to make out, - oh and another $10 from his place to the afterhours party
• watching a guy at the party fall to the floor into convoltions because he did to much G
• the afterhours party
• $20 cab ride home
• monday at 7pm

I'm glad this only happens once a year.